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Monday, February 07, 2011

Cracked Actor - David Bowie [1974] [DVD Video]


Hooray! A Full DVD!!
Get it now!.



And if I may be so bold as to just hand you over to someone who is obviously much better equipped to deal with such things as reviews...
Or Wikipedia as it's also known

Cracked Actor is a 53-minute-long BBC television documentary film about the pop star David Bowie. It was filmed in 1974. At the time he was a cocaine addict and the documentary has become notorious for showing Bowie's fragile mental state during this period. It was made by Alan Yentob for the BBC's Omnibus documentary strand, and was first shown, on BBC2 in the UK, on January 26, 1975.
The documentary depicts Bowie on tour in Los Angeles, using a mixture of documentary sequences filmed in limousines and hotels, and concert footage. Most of the concert footage was taken from a show at the Los Angeles Universal Amphitheatre on 2 September 1974. There were also excerpts from D.A. Pennebaker's concert film Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars, which had been shot at London's Hammersmith Odeon on 3 July 1973, as well as a few other performances from the tour.[1] 'Cracked Actor' is notable for being one of the only sources for footage of Bowie's ambitious Diamond Dogs tour.
The title of the documentary was originally to be The Collector, after a comment that Bowie had made to interviewer Russell Harty the previous year, whereby he described himself as "a collector of accents". Yentob and his team were given the task of documenting Bowie's famous Diamond Dogs tour, which was already underway when they started filming. Locations for the documentary mainly centred around Hollywood and Los Angeles, but there was also concert footage taken from Philadelphia. A number of performances from the tour were shown, including songs such as "Space Oddity", "Cracked Actor", "Sweet Things/Candidate", "Moonage Daydream", "The Width of a Circle", "Aladdin Sane", "Time", "Diamond Dogs" and "John, I'm Only Dancing (Again)".

At present, the documentary remains unreleased officially.


OK now all I should point out is that this is a collectors/Fans DVD and is nicely made with menus and a little extra too.
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A great quality DVD.
Of course that means it is a lot more to download but I know it is worth it, well, I downloaded it! Hehe. It's up to you of course :)
Grab this file and read more details, the specifications are in there too
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COMPUTERS...


It never does only friggin' rain they say don't they?
It pours...
Wow. Here I am trying to get through this steroid dependency withdrawal - of which I am now down to 6mg daily from a start of 12mg! - and then my hard drive just ..STOPS.
Nothing.
Not a whisper.

I was typing, I heard a click (that good old click of death! and then the screen froze. Oh well usual XP crap I thought, reboot..
Upon reboot I got the black screen telling me:
'Disk Read Error', 'Press Ctrl+ALT+DEL To Restart'.
Great.

I was only slightly losing my mind by this point...

I remembered the best way to fix this situation and there really is only ONE possible chance at retrieving data or getting the hard drive back into a working state for long enough to grab some files(I back up but hadn't for a month and so quite a few photographs and files were doomed).
Spinrite!
Get a copy you will not regret it!
I found my disc and put it on...it immediately found what it called 'Defective sectors'... errors that it could recover data from and errors that it couldn't recover data from. It wasn't looking good but I decided to go with Spinrite and put it on top level recovery setting which then told me it had 'only' 312 hours left to go!!!
I left it running all weekend and then it had changed its expected time to a better one and by yesterday it was finished(almost 3 days)!
I rebooted the PC and..
Here I am using it again!
Windows came back on, everything works fine and...I got to upload all my files to my online backup so crisis averted!!
The thing is I NEED a new hard drive of course.
Grrrr.
Any offers?
:P


Maybe it's time for something nice after all that moaning...

I really must try to go to Formula 1 some day. Not sure why they have these women walking around the place but I won't complain...


I think I may have discovered a new sport I like!
Woman's Basketball anyone...?




Looks like a real fun day out!


So where the hell is the music damn it?
I don't know...I only just got back online ... give me a minute!
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Thursday, January 20, 2011

Heartland Reggae - Bob Marley 1978 [VIDEO]




Hello.
Life has been unkind for a while now. The latest 'project' I have embarked on is to lower the dose of Steroids I take (for the inflammation of the intestine) and have been taking for probably 20 years at least. They cause all sorts of horrible side effects and it seems I am now starting to be affected by these. The consultant tells me I MUST come off them as they no longer stop the illness but instead, are providing my body with an amazingly high dose of a chemical it used to produce itself. Now it struggles to. This is what makes the lowering of them so difficult. As you lower it, your body screams out for it and struggles to produce any naturally. Eventually it does take over again naturally but it's a difficult process. Ho hum. Still on the other drug and although it IS making me feel better at times, I am still VERY unwell and it looks like I am heading into the darkness...the possibility of BIG surgery again. can I deal with that again? I mean, it's no easy feat: Feels like you've been hit by a steam roller when you wake up. Last time I just screamed for a few days...urgh. Terror is a good word to describe it.
So I am currently trying to take that on board as a possibility in the next few months. *gulp*



I wonder now, do any of you like Reggae?
Hehe. Surely!

I got hold of a few different films based on the history of reggae, Peter Tosh, Bob Marley and related stuff. I have really been loving watching these and they are so relaxing during some pretty intense pain filled days...I just smoke some weed and try to sail over the pain, with the music. Oh and a hot water bottle burning my abdomen of course and my cat, Oliver, keeping my morale up. Hehe. Pathetic I know but life is as it is..


Well here it is, excuse a lack of deep research but if I tried to explain where my mind is you wouldn't understand a word I said...neither would I!


Heartland Reggae - Bob Marley 1978
A website too!
This is an amazing to watch film, beautiful Jamaican scenes, great performances of great reggae music by the masters themselves..



Bob Marley, Peter Tosh, U-Roy, Inner Circle, Jacob Miller, Junior Tucker, Jody Mowatt, Dennis Brown, Althea & Donna, Lloyd Parkes, Ras Lee Morris, Marcia Griffiths, Natty Garfield. There, I think that's about all of them!
OK this film Is a bit amatuer, the dubbing seems awful at times but generally you can hear it fine and it works. The way it switches from a live set, to some Jamaican scenery is apparently random..but it still looks nice there :)
This isn't your HD whatever quality but it's definitely no youtube fodder either!
This film is shot just before and during the One Love Peace Concert in Jamaica in 1978, during what you might call a 'trying time' for the locals, police and politicians...the reggae singers didn't have ot so easy either. this is the famous part whetre Bob Marley get's the two opposition dicks to shake hands on stage.. the fact that there is an amazing thunderstorm with lightning striking is somehow apt for the situation.



Cool.

U-Roy is superb on here, made me go crack open an old album of his I hadn't listened to for a while..still as good as it ever was too.

OK my friends, hope you enjoy this fine film and I hope I can return sooner than last time, I have another reggae film uploading for you, it was a stroke of luck I managed to find it so it isn't so easily available online :)

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Sunday, November 28, 2010

Bob Marley - One Love Home Video DVD (Gold)

Hello people!
Just a really quick one for you.
This is an exclusive damn it!!!
There is some guy on youtube who, if you repost any of 'his' (he really does own the copyrights top these rare Bob Marley videos and he knows it!) rare Bob Marley DVDs or videos to youtube or anywhere, he makes out a report and claims copyright and, youtube or wherever remove it as he always is able to prove he really owns them.
Well as you can imagine that means you only get these where he releases them and on the understanding they go nowhere else and are NEVER EVER re encoded to lossy formats.



Well Bob would not agree methinks.
He would be so happy if these were copied and recopied and spread the world over in all or as many formats as people could need.

Spread that joy!!!

Hehe. Sorry I almost got carried away there.

So here, just for you, NOT on youtube (may even last a bit longer this way!) is...

Bob Marley - One Love Home Video DVD
This is an incredible bit of home video of Bob when he was really young. Some shots of him playing around a waterfall with friends and others of him doing some jamming with his acoustic in front of the camera. It comes from oldee stylee VHS and so the quality is poor but it is worth seeing if you like the guy at all..hehe

More details...I have to not copy and paste them directly...he probably searches google for the descriptions too..

Hmm I had to copy them after all as there is very little to discover!
Please click here if you want to read the info I found about this.


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Saturday, November 27, 2010

The Stranglers - Rattus Norvegicus AND No More Heroes [1977]



Life is a large turd, halfway down the pipe but sort of stuck in the U-Bend.
You are forever trying to prod it with a stick to get some clarity but you will never quite scrape the shit off until you really put some effort into it.


The new drug sucks.
I'm not going to dwell on it but take it from me, this is no way to get better!



Also the files I had uploaded were there so long before me posting that they got deleted! Oops.



The Stranglers! So I went off and I stood by my word. I listened to them. I listened and listened and then I watched a concert. Then another. Then another and another. I even watched them Live at the Royal Albert Hall, without the great lead singer of old though, playing with a ladies Orchestra wearing combats!
I found some great and rare stuff on the way and I think I can now truly say I KNOW The stranglers. I know how they have disbanded and evolved and changed over the years.
I know that after the second (third in some peoples' opinions...Hmm I'm undecided, it has some great tracks and some mush) they just ...went shit.
They did.

I can hardly listen to some of the shite that they have churned out over the years. I especially dislike their recent stuff.
If I could draw a line across their discography history and say when the best stuff was and when the worst was, I am afraid it wouldn't be very original and it does seem to be the most popular opinion: I would draw the line from now (shite) to their very first album (great!). It goes like a direct line from great to shit with no real turns or twists on the way.

I don't know how it can be.
They are a strange breed.
Not many bands do what they have done.
Most bands, with the talent they had/have would have made better and more solid tunes after such a start. I only say this as their first album is such a piece of creative expression, to me it's a work of art.
I'm being serious. I do think it's really that good. So it just seems ridiculous when I hear their fourth or their sixth album for instance...poor.
They got worse it seems.
Any ideas...?
I bring you then, in order of goodness, the two best Stranglers albums ever to exist and, sadly, ever likely to exist. there will be no more.
They will keep releasing stuff but, you will know what I mean after you listen..
Their first, a work of obvious Prog-Rock to my ears!
Who labelled this band 'punk'?
That is so off the mark as to be almost comical!!!
I mean, they don't even look the part of the punk bands that were around in the day they were walking about in their leather and suffering from weird gothic photo shoots that the likes of John Lydon would never have been seen in!

Gothic Photo Shoot not like anything The stranglers ever did...

The music is way off the scale of both ability and talent, as well as not being 'punk music' so I fail to see why or how they got such a genre shoved onto them when it just doesn't seem to fit well at all...
I always think of them as worthy of Prog rock as the likes of Caravan and Camel.. the real magicians at their craft.
When you listen to such tracks as 'Down in The Sewer' and when your ears hear, for the very first time, the grumbling bass-line introducing 'Goodbye Toulouse', you know you are witnessing something a bit special.
Something that amazes you.
Feel it.
It works.

The whole of the first album hits me that way. There are moments where it dips of course. I'm not saying it is a perfect record but it's about as close as it gets if you really let their music wash over you.
I am still only truly in love with this album. I am also posting the second but if I never got to hear it again and could only choose the first I would be very happy. :)
Here is their second which I hope you'll find to be a blaast. It isn't quite as much of a prog-rock sound, like Rattus Norvegicus was but still that magic is in there and you can hear it ;)
(Like that joint I just smoked...)



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Thursday, November 11, 2010

Request Fill... David Gilmour & Roger Waters / Rizioule - R&M Eurojam.


Oliver the Cat likes to reach out and pat/punch my face for attention.
He's just too cool!



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Hello. Today was suddenly back to illnmess land. I just cannot speculatye or predict what each day will be. And yesterday so good to!
But I just want to post this track that Padukes asked me if I could locate and, to my surprise there was only ONE source for it. A chinese site with a bit of a different downloading system to the usual.
Install their software, called RaySourse, which, when you find a raysource link anywhere, launches into action and tra-laa! The file downloads!
Amazing too is that it had no spyware or any crap. Some ads but well...it was free. Doubt I will use it much unless I can find a search engine for RaySource links...



So the track Padukes asked about was the vaguely titled:
live! - pink floyd - david gilmore - roger waters - rizioule - r&m_eurojam
There are some spelling errors in there but, I got it and have listened and...
and...
erm...
OK, it isn't exactly disturbing or shite
but it is rather nondescript to be honest.
It didn't 'move' me in the slightest.
Just a bit of your run-of-the-mill ambient background(Dare I say background) music!
Let me know what other opinions are on this, maybe I'm being unfair!

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Oh, in the rar file this came in, were also some seemingly random tracks.. the names of which I just spent almost a damned HOUR trying to add my old customisation to windows 7. the right click 'Create FileList' entry! As usual Windows 7 tries to stop you doing things like this but..it be done :)
So here's the result!
Enigma & Phil Collins & Pink Floyd - Sadness.Mp3
Led Zeppelin & Pink Floyd - Stairway To Heaven.Mp3
Led Zeppelin And Pink Floyd - Whole Lotta Love On The Run.Mp3
Live! - Pink Floyd - David Gilmore - Roger Waters - Rizioule - R&M_Eurojam.Mp3
Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb (Live With Trent Reznor And David Bowie).Mp3
Pink Floyd - With The Beatles On April 15, 1967_Very Rare.Mp3
Pink Floyd Comfortably Numb Live (Bootleg) Pearl Jam Cat Stevens Tool Bachman Turner Overdrive BTO Jewel Sting Rare Rock.Mp3
Stevie Ray Vaughn, ZZ Top, Rush, The Moody Blues, ElP, The Who, Van Halen, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin, Kiss, - Little Wing (Rare Bootleg).Mp3

Want me to upload those too?
Little Wing sounds cool...a
And that my friends is that.
For today.
Go easy: bad day today, so good day tomorrow right?!
Either way you get an album for the weekend OK.
So be here, tomorrow!
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Sunday, November 07, 2010

Still alive :)

Hello folks.
I commend you on still hanging around to have had some notification of this post. Or maybe there really is no one here except me?!!
Would it matter?
Of course it fucking would!
You think I do this for finger exercise?
If no one was going to read or download any music I had thought was worthy of being introduced to, I wouldn't bother with this. I haven't updated for so long for health reasons, you may have guessed that.


It is not only physical ability, when I am so spaced and weak with illness that I cannot think of much more than pain and trying to eat enough calories every day to stop weight loss, then writing on here about music is just too far away from where my mind is. It is a struggle and so you end up with how the posts were becoming for awhile - short, no comment on the music, just an album cover and some links more or less.
There's loads of sites like that so I don't want to do that here. I used to have a laugh and post some rants but when I'm so ill it's hard to come out of the bubble of pain it gets you into.
so now you know then eh. Pain hits you hard and chronic, that is long term constant pain is a real bastardo.

I've been getting into The Stranglers - Rattus_Norvegicus album again lately, they are supreme!
The way the bass guitar sounds is like a tractor...you can almost see the strings on that thing rattling on the guitar so low and growling. Brilliant sound!
I'll post it up here tomorrow.
anyway got to go try sleep now, just thought it was time to post about this shit.
The new drug they put me on - it worked, then it faded, then it worked a little, then it faded, then i got worse, then it worked a little, then it hardly worked at all when i had it, and now?
It seems to have worked this time. I take it every two weeks and every time has given a different result as you can see.
It's overall not fun :/
Tomorrow is another day though :)

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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Coming up for air.



Heey HEY HEY HEY@ HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY THERE!!!!
I tried to have a nice, happy, relaxed and at the same time, cautious picture to represent what I have for you today.
The thing is ... that new drug has been something I have feared for a long time now. I have read the success reports and the percentages and figures, studies, results, more studies, side effects, more bloody side effects, tumours in children treated with it, then word of it being linked to Lymphoma in, again, young people and children. Well I recently found myself getting so damned unwell that life was, well, I won't call it 'life'. Not the life that you think of or relate to when you hear someone using that word. It was nothing like that 'life'.
My life had become a task...a long, drawn out, collection of unpleasant experienced from morning until, finally, the end of each day where I would try to find some solace in sleep.
Even that had become a bit hit and miss with the pain levels being what they become over recent months. I still found though, a good joint of cannabis smoked before bed time (yes just the one a day!) really helped to relax the mind as well as the body, sometimes resulting in a good loss of some of the pain.! Though recently it was more about helping my mind to relax and find some possible way of dealing with such pain. Night after night I have been right on the edge, ready to scream and shout, so painful I was writhing in bed, unable to stay still and yet moving was not advised as my whole abdomen felt so tender it really hurt to move. This has gone on for far too long now but it's what you have to be able to somehow live with, if you have a disease and it is known to get this bad.
I know why they call it a disease at least. There is a distinct lack of 'ease' in the situation!
So let me follow that on by telling you that about two weeks ago I was losing weight rapidly due to the increased disease. Sometimes a pound in a day. It was dropping fast and I saw the scales say EIGHT stones (and 13pounds :)) for the first time in years. That scared me. When you get so ill it's the first thing to go and people can become very thin from this. Once it made me weigh 6 and a half stones and I felt horrid from that alone...couldn't really walk and was just a bag of bones!
Anyway back to today...
I weighed 8st 13lbs, I was really struggling to eat at all. The pain had now become so bad that if I even had a mouthful of anything, the response inside my body; as eating stimulates the movement we all have of our intestines; the movement to push food along, called 'peristalsis'. As soon as I ate a thing and that happened, it would become violent and have severe spasms. Effectively eating became a scary thing and to be avoided. I would eat a small amount then I would be doubled over in pain, moaning out or even crying, it really was that bad and I have lived with pain for years so I can handle pain a bit!
So you get the idea of the pain now then? Hehe.
I was using a hot water bottle to press against my abdomen for this. I've used it for years and most folk with Crohn's do the same. It helps. again though, recently I was almost clinging to it and using it 24/7 which means I have added to the burn marks on my body as I always fill it with boiling water and use it that hot. It's the only way to help the pain. Apart from what I just described I was also feeling very weak all the time and so my life had evolved into lying on the sofa and watching downloaded TV shows, movies or watching actual TV. Either that or I would try to come on the PC for a bit but lately I was too weak even for that. Sitting upright for long would hurt to much an be too tiring. I also kept falling in and out of a dazed/sleepy state all day whilst watching the TV.
This is another symptom of Crohn's. It's like a very heavy fatigue and with the waves of pain that come over you, also comes a strong feeling of faintness, like you are about to pass out...so you usually end up closing your eyes and your head falls back...but you don't faint. Or sleep. You just keep doing the same thing all day, then you open your eyes, try to watch TV again, do it again and again and so on.
That alone can really irritate me!
So you get the scene now I will assume? Or are you now asleep and in a dazed state yourself?
Take a break.
Come back for the next bit.
:)
Yesterday, after noticing I was having a bit less pain for a couple of days, I went to get my hot water bottle as I usually do, before bed. To fill it as when I lie in bed, the peristalsis starts and so my pain is always worsened as soon as I get in bed! anyway I couldn't find the damn bottle. Usually it's on the sofa, on the PC chair or on the bed if I had to go lie on the bed that day but it wasn't.
then it hit me. I hadn't used it AT ALL for the whole day!
It was still in the bed, from the previous night.
Up until that point I was happy to tell myself that any improvements I was feeling in my health, were probably due to my having to increase the steroids again a week before, or due to me not eating hardly on those days, so having less pain.
I think you naturally become over-cautious and maybe a bit protective. Of your own emotions and the well being of the rest of your family. Who wants to keep having hopes all the time and then to have them dashed EVERY time!?
Been there, done that etc. Too many times believe me! I was now resigned to my particular Crohn's being of a type that hits hard and doesn't respond to the available drugs we have. That is how it always hit me and it rarely changes.
Yet here I was with the hot water bottle in my hand, cold, unused for a day. that would be the first day in maybe 3 or 4 years. (actually I have to buy a new one every few months!).
Then I was convinced.
I can tell you how I have been now.
I think that is enough scene setting hehe.
I can eat!
I can walk!
I can sit up!
I have much less pain!
I don't have a hot water bottle almost strapped to me everywhere I go!
I can actually go places other than the sofa!
I am putting on weight!
I am no longer falling into the dazed zone!
No fatigue!
I can sleep!



There.

That felt so good.

To tell the truth I think I have been a bit shell shocked by this.


I'm not sure what to make of it.
It is almost as the religious say, I have been born again.
Hehe I know that sounds over dramatic but, just put yourself into the situation I described above, for a minute, imagine yourself in that and then imagine living in that ill world for years.
Then imagine just how you would feel if it were suddenly appearing to be lifting!
I say appearing to as I am still automatically cautious! I do see I am feeling better yet my mind tells me not to assume it will last, etc.
I won't let that stop me though!
To be able to experience life for what it is, the most simple of things are almost like new to me right now.
I feel like I am waking up from what has been a very long sleep.

I haven't actually been away but, let me tell you something:

It is good to be back.

Sorry no music posted in this one. Got something for you tomorrow though.

thanks to everyone who has been supporting me, I mean with your kind words, emails and of course the donators.

I'm still not going to start acting like I am cured but I plan to take each day as it is, if I feel good I won't be denying it that's for sure! If I have a bad day then I will handle it. The pain is so much more manageable when it does come (at night mostly) that it's actually EASY.

Thanks for listening.

I wish you all well and never neglect your own health ok. If you have anything you think is wrong, get it looked at dammit.
Hehe. I had to end with a moral? Why? I must be more affected by the American TV shows I watch than I realised...shit.
Oh well...

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Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Deep Purple - In Rock [1970] {{Stoner Collection #18}}



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Hello strangers. Some time has passed.
Crohn's disease got so bad that I had to abandon my 'steroid Reduction' plan and put the dose back up until the inflammation symptoms lessened.
the reason I HAD TO do this was because I started losing weight rather rapidly. from 10stone 5 lbs, to 8stone 11lbs in a couple of weeks or so. That's more than I can afford to lose and, once you get very ill with this, it can be so much harder to deal with if you get too thin.
Well the steroids did slow this down and enable me to feel slightly better but I haven't been able to get back to the level of health I was at before I changed the steroids dose! so it seems I have made my situation worse by trying to reduce the steroids!
Heh. What luck :)

The GREAT news is!!!!!!

I went to the hospital today and I have been given my first dose of a new (relatively) drug that has a great success rate for people with Crohn's Disease, especially those who no longer respond to other treatments...that's me!
I was worried about taking it at first...amongst the warnings they give you at the hospital is the increased risk of Lymphoma as a side effect, although it is, thankfully, rare.
When I lost weight so quick and also became so ill and in constant severe pain the the decision was made for m e. illness has a way of changing your mind. after many hours of this crap you will agree to anything if it gives you a chance of not being in pain!
So I had the first dose today and I really am hopeful about this.
I also hope it doesn't turn out to be false hope. Best thing would be not to get too excited or invest any hopes in it at all but I can't help myself this time. I am so ill just now that I NEED this to work.
If it doesn't work, doesn't slow the process of deterioration I have dropped into, I will require surgery. Pretty hefty op too.
I'm not going there.
I'm too hopeful.
This drug will work :)



I am only giving you some music here as I thought it might piss you off to see an update and not even an album to boot...!

Sorry but you wanted information on the album?
You'll have to use google this time I'm afraid. You ought to be ashamed of yourself if you really need to do that.
If that is the case then GO GO! Educate yourself on this fine band...

Files are in HIGH QUALITY 320K MP3.

I am working on getting a great set of FLAC files on this to you. they are uploading now, complete with the guitar tabs book too so you can get yourself playing along.
Rockin'..

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Who knows, this could be the very beginnings of a new era in my life.
One that isn't ruled by pain and suffering and taking painkillers all bloody day and night..
We shall see.
Like I said, I'm hopeful!



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Songbook for guitar, piano whatever! Chords and lyrics!
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Black Sabbath - Black Sabbath [1970] {{Stoner Collection #17}}



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Hello folks.;
So, by now I should be recovering from the steroid reduction eh?
I should at least be feeling better after not lowering the dose any more for almost two weeks now.?
Nope.
The Crohn's disease has now become so terrible that the steroid withdrawal seems almost easy by comparison.
now I find myself in a situation of my own making - kind of. If I had stayed on the high dose of steroids then the illness would not have increased so dramatically (or would it?) but if I had carried on taking them then I was heading for the serious side effects of which I already have Osteoporosis but thankfully nothing too bad like Diabetes or cancer. I do have muscle atrophy and thinning of the skin (Crap picture but I couldn't find a better one. Just imagine no wrinkles on it) and other minor(!) complaints so I stopped them at the right time I think.
Hey don't forget to look at the LASTING PERMANENT DAMAGING EFFECTS opf these horrible shit steroids. I don't remember being warned quite to the degree that I should have been, when I was put n them!
When I say 'stopped' I mean I have managed to reduce them to 6mg and I cannot reduce them any further. For now at least. I still dream of not taking any one day but it is becoming just that...a dream.
If this is boring and not what you came here to read then I'm sorry. Pain has become my life recently and there's fuck all I can do about it.
At least understand why I must talk of it!


Most days I can't even get on the computer as I feel so weary and tired out, having to sit up at the PC chair is too much believe it or not. If it were just pain I could deal with it somehow. It isn't 'just pain' though, the pain brings an overwhelming feeling of weakness and sickness...you go weak to the point of feeling you will faint, the room spins, you shake and sweat drips from your head whilst the most raw and tender pain swells in your abdomen and goes into a severe cramp that takes your breath away and makes you moan almost as a reflex to it. You curl up and want it to stop. Nothing else can enter your head when it gets to this point. just pure pain and a feeling of: ILL.
What can I say?
Just thought I'd share that with you.



I'll just keep the following in my posts for now so I don't have to explain over and over..
I can only really say one word: Steroids.
Well, maybe I should make that two or three:
Steroid Reduction Sucks.




Enter...BLACK SABBATH.
You have heard of them right?
Either you love them and have a lot of their music or you don't mind them and have maybe a greatest hits album or this one, or, you hate them. I just think that, if you are in the last category then there is also a good chance that you haven't really given their music a chance.
In other words a lot of folk who say Black sabbath are shit, or bands like them, usually haven't listened to them or don't have anything by them! They just have an attitude of Heavy Metal being freaky shit for long haired spotty youths or middle aged beer-bellied hicks with mullets and bad manners and an unhealthy obsession with guitars or guitarists and loose women...and something to do with too much masturbation and not enough interaction with females...

That sounds about right actually :)
Hehe.
No!
You must give it a try or you will forever be an arrogant dick who thinks they know it all but haven't actually tested these beliefs about the world (or the world's music).
Am I making sense or is it just the tablets?

I speak from experience.
I used to say 'Heavy Metal? No thanks!' for years until a guy I met played some to me and I really got into it!
How about this for a fact though: not heavy metal. Not metal really in my opinion, just Rock.
Good..
old..
solid
ROCK music.

In it's purest form.
This band is Rock.


Just download it and comment.
Thanks :)

By the way this is 320K MP3 and it's the double CD Deluxe Version remastered (2009).
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Random mildly amusing Ozzy Osbourne article: Ozzy wants to donate his body to Museum but who would want it I wonder...?
I suppose he could sell his lungs to some potheads to scrape them out and dry them for the THC?

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Saturday, June 12, 2010

Jimi Hendrix - Band of Gypsys [1970] {{Stoner Collection #16}}





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Hello. I managed something, at least.
Next one in the list and I don't have to tell you my opinion on this fine album hehe.



I'll just keep the following in my posts for now so I don't have to explain over and over..
I can only really say one word: Steroids.
Well, maybe I should make that two or three:
Steroid Reduction Sucks.



Not much to say at all right now. I'm too friggin ill to have the energy. It feels as if all my energy is used up dealing with the opain that never stops and increases so much more when I try to eat.
If you don't eat you get thinner so ... not a good idea.
I'm turning this into some kind of medical journal now hehe.
Life is as it is for now.
Pretty fucked!

Here is a nice wee link for some reviews on this album. No fanboys there at all..

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I need to get healthier... the steroids dose being so low now, has caused the symptoms of Crohn's Disease to be higher than ever and it's pretty much constant pain and weakness here. I'm just waiting for it to change but it is looking less likely each damn day.
Hmm.
OK and hey! Blast this album loud if you know what's good for you..

Up next ... Black Sabbath!
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Thursday, June 03, 2010

The Can - Monster Movie [1969] {{Stoner Collection #15}}




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Hello. Once again, I bring you the next album in the Stoner collection series...



I'll just keep the following in my posts for now so I don't have to explain over and over..
I can only really say one word: Steroids.
Well, maybe I should make that two or three:
Steroid Reduction Sucks.



I will admit to you all right now.
I have never even heard of Can until last week.
It's always good to discover new music.
If you are the same then it is worth a look here to get a bit of background, then here for more.
The music itself is a good mix of Psychedelic Rock, poetry and some weird chord changes. All backed up with a good solid bass. Very much percussion based too. They are German and you can tell. Hehe.
What do I mean by that statement eh? I wonder.
Actually I just meant there is a flavour of Kraut-Rock in there but not too much (thankfully). I do love some of the screeching guitar though. Very experimental. Your granny wouldn't like it and your girlfriend will probably say 'can you turn it down a bit?' - well mine did anyway!
There are hints of 'The Doors' in there too, as well as maybe 'YES' and Frank Zappa...in fact I start to hear so many reminders of other stuff when listening that I am maybe over analysing instead of listening to it on its own merits.
That's steroid reduction for you. It seems to be a form of madness. Arrgghh.
I heartily recommend you go READ this here band Bio.
Fascinating stuff.
I have to say the version of the old nursery rhyme, Mary Mary Quite Contrary is enlightening! Definitely better than the original that's for sure :)
Not something I could listen to every day but, when I get some weed and it's nice 'n' sunny...
Today then.
Pity about the pain but worse things happen at sea and all that..


Isn't it time ISRAEL were made to go along with the rest of the world's rules?
I fucking detest oppression. Religious or otherwise.


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Another day, another um ... day.

Sunny though.

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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Grand Funk Railroad - Grand Funk [1969] {{Stoner Collection #14}}



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Hello again. Life is still harsh. In fact today I feel so much worse than yesterday so here is the next album in the Stoner collection series...



I'll just keep the following in my posts for now so I don't have to explain over and over..
I can only really say one word: Steroids.
Well, maybe I should make that two or three:
Steroid Reduction Sucks.



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Wow. An hour is a long time these days :(

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Monday, May 24, 2010

Santana - Santana [1969] {{Stoner Collection #13}}



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Hello again. Looks like summer eh? Great.



I can only really say one word: Steroids.
Well, maybe I should make that two or three:
Steroid Reduction Sucks.
I'm suffering right now so just wanted to post the next album and leave again...



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I am now at 5.5mg of Steroids per day for my Crohn's disease, as opposed to the dose I started on, 15mg. This is the most difficult things I have tried to do: come off medically prescribed Hydrocortisone.

I hope to come out of the other side of this at some point, with my faculties intact. they appear to have left me during the process and it is just bloody horrible 23 hours out of 24.

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Friday, April 30, 2010

Grand Funk Railroad - On Time [1969] {{Stoner Collection #12}}



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Hello all.

Yes it's not been a good week. Or should that be month? I lose count when the illness is bad..



Hope you enjoy this next album in the Stoner Music collection series...

And here it is



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I am now at 9mg of Steroids per day for my Crohn's disease, as opposed to the dose I started on, 15mg. This is one of the most difficult things I have tried to do: come off medically prescribed Hydrocortisone.
Looks like summer is here already.. Life goes on.

You know comments are always read with appreciation...say something!
Time for my medication..


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Wednesday, April 07, 2010

King Crimson - In the Court of the Crimson King [1969] {{Stoner Collection #11}}


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Hello my people.
I wonder if that's how Jesus called to his followers? In that case I should just change it to Hi!
I don't want to be resembling jesus, not today.
Not ever.



So whatever happened to that Stoner Music Collection you were posting HitMeWithIt you lazy no good sonovvabitch?!
"erm...duh...uh-oh.."
So where the fuck is the next friggin' instalment then arsehole?
"Well I, erm...it's here, I just need to ..."
Hurry it up shithead!

And here it is

This King Crimson album is a real classic. It means a lot to me due to it being around during the time I was experimenting with drugs, to a point that is - I never wanted to try chemical drugs, avoided coke and heroin and would never even consider things like crack...but I liked the so called 'natural' highs from various plants or mushrooms. I remember hearing this alvbum for the first time shortly after taking some Liberty Cap mushrooms when I was about 17.
It is even now, still difficult for me to put into words exactly what went on!!
After all these years I still struggle to convey the things and feelins I had that night and that this very album brought to my mind!
It takes you on a journey....it's an incredibly exciting and unpredictable journey but...you get there in the end and you are all the more mature and better for having travelled!
There, and that is my so called review.

Oh and tiny update: I have been VERY ill recently, much worse than the usual moans I make...so the site has been far from my mind as I deal with increased pain and weaning off steroids. that is the hard thing.
I'll try to bring the site more to life again when I feel my strength returning but, for now, it's whenever I can!
Thanks for supporting me by still dropping by whoever you are :)


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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

David Bowie - Strange Fascination 1974-09-05 Bootleg

Hello out there.
It's awfy quiet. Contrasting the noise inside my head, caused by the need to reduce the dose of steroids I have been taking for about 13 years. These things are fucking terrible. You don't notice it when you go on them of course, in fact they seem like some kind of miracle drug! Pretty soon after you start taking them, in my case at least, but generally, for most illnesses that respond to them, this is what happens...you go from feeling very weak, being sick and unable to eat to feeling full of energy(!) full of the joys of life(!!) and the great thing for a Crohns diseaser is that you cultivate this amazingly ravenous appetite. It is like having the munchies every waking moment for a few years!!!
If you know anything about life by now my friend you will realise already that things come at a price.
Is there such a thing as a 'miracle' drug?
I can tell you the answer is no.
You see, the magical steroid health is only a temporary help. It is a temporary 'solution' to your ill health.
Without going into it too much, let me simplify it:
Steroids reduce inflammation. Inflammation is a process that is involved in many diseases from a simple cold to HIV. These particular steroids (hydrocortisone) can reduce inflammation in so many areas of the body and in so many illnesses, they are used a lot and can seem like a cure-all at times.
Alas, they are not a light substance to ingest so much. your body produces it's own amount of this hormone (hydrocortisone) every day. You need it to live. When you get stressed, excited, scared, emotional and even just when you are walking, talking and doing your usual shit (pardon my technical jargon here, you may have to use wikipedia)you NEED this stuff. Generally, a persons body will be producing the amount they require. That's how it goes.
This isn't really the place to go right into the workings of it so let me cut to the chase..
When you are taking steroids for inflammation, you need a dose that is much higher than your body would ever produce. you take this high amount every day until your body is used to the higher level. also your body will pretty much give up and eventually stop producing any of its own, due to the fact that it is getting enough already.
This is where the problem is when you come off the shit.
Steroids also bring side effects. Shitty effects that you don't want but are guaranteed to get if you continue to go along the steroid road of fake pseudo-health and hyperactivity(!!). These are too many to list but include cataracts and diabetes as well as Osteoporosis which I already have due to them.
So I must try to reduce or come off of them altogether. The problem is that my body has almost forgotten how to produce its own and wow ... does it make me feel like shit. Talk about feeling weird. This is worse than tripping on mushrooms sometimes I swear! (I mean a bad trip, obviously)
I'm sure this diatribe will speak for itself (was that an unintentional pun-joke there...? Oh I'm probably the only one that got it so fuck it...forget it) but, just in case you didn't grasp it, it's weirdness all around. Fleeting thoughts that disappear before you grab the thread...flickering sight, things look warped and then suddenly snap back to their usual state. As you go into more days of reduction you sweat. Lots. You sit on the sofa to watch TV and you feel sweat running down your temples...then your neck is soaked and you realise just how much its making you sweat. Shaking! I never had the shakes so much in my life. Nervousness is another thing. Really nervy..
This is going to be a long haul too. I feel a wreck already to tell the truth. Fuck this and the horse it rode in on. Oh yeah, that was me.
I chose to keep taking them over the years but hey, when faced with the gut-fucking-body-wrenching alternative then who wouldn't eh?
It is only now that I am reducing them I realise just how steroid-soaked my existence is/has been.
It is highly time to get back to reality FFS!
I am so eager I almost did myself an injury by reducing them too fast. I just want to get through it to the other side. I'm on 15mg and I am to reduce by 1mg every two weeks ONLY if it feels OK. well, in the first week I reduced it 3mg.
Yeah I'm fucking hurting now. It's the end of week two.
Urgh...! I will wait a week before doing anything now.
If I make it. Heh.
I know though, its no joke.
You really can get sick if you reduce them too fast on account of your inability to make your own supply. so you can faint, fit, go into a coma and erm die if you were faced with a lack of steroid when you needed it.
Best to do it slowly then like they say. Balls.
Am I making your day go in a generally positive direction so far?
Great. :)





Welcome.
You made it through all of that so I mean it, well done.

Today is Bowie.
Ground Control to Major Tom...

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